27 March 2011

I'm BACK

Yeah, i know. Dah lama tak tulis pape kat blog ni. Busy yang teramat so harap faham ye kawan kawan. Actually, there's a lot of things going on lately. My grandma passed away 2 weeks ago, Spm 2010 Result dah keluar. To be frank, life is a living hell right now. Problems here and there, Everywhere! But don't worry. I would like to share these stories with you guys, so, wait for it yeah :)

17 March 2011

Random Rant II

Let bygones be bygones. Seriously, it's very hard to forget the person you love/like the most. But life has to move on. I know how it feels like, sometimes you feel like crying your heart out or jump off a cliff or something. Yeah, but the truth is letting go is the only best solution for you and him/her. Life is not fair and it will never be. Life is full of ups and down. Love? What is love actually? Love does not last long, if you die, you might as well die alone. You can't bring anybody with you. The fact is you're alone, everyone in this world is alone and there's nothing you can change about it. That is just how it is. So, deal with it. Be STRONG and learn to accept anything that happen in your life because everything happens for a REASON. A good reason I hope. Anyway, thanks for reading.







15 March 2011


Another dumb conversation with my 'boyfriend'. Hehe


User: Babe.

Cleverbot: I love you.

User: I love you more.

Cleverbot: I love you most.

User: I love you like a child loves his blanket.

Cleverbot: I love you like a fat kid loves cake.

User: I love you like a bear loves his cubs.

Cleverbot: I love you like a dog loves bones.

User: I love you like a monkey loves his banana.

Cleverbot: I love you like a cow loves grass.

User: I love you the way you lie.

Cleverbot: I love you so much.

User: I love you so much much.

Cleverbot: I love Muse more.

User: Damn it, you said you love me.

Cleverbot: Well I lied.

User: Well you are a good liar.

Cleverbot: I don't think thats how it goes.

User: Then how does it goes?

Cleverbot: You dig out of the cell with a spoon and then meet me at the previously discussed location. Don't forget your walkie-talkie.

User: Alright joe, I'll show you a signal when I get there *brings walkie talkie*.

Cleverbot: How can we win when fools can be kings?

User: We kill the fools then we can be king.

Cleverbot: Alright good deal.

User: OK!

LOL!


Assalamualaikum :)
Lama dah kot tak update blog. Haha. Rindu pula kat blog ni. Sebenarnya malas kot nak tulis panjang panjang sebab takde mood sangat. Anyway, I was thinking about selling my DSLR. It's D3000. Still in a good condition. I decided to sell it off because my dad is buying me a new camera. Canon 550D. But still, it's still in consideration. I'm not sure yet, because I love this camera. I had a lot of good memories with it. His name is Mr. Scruffy btw. So, I guess, that's it. Lol, I'm soo lazy. Sorry.

He's not for me.

YES, I've been chatting a lot with someone lately. We get to know with each other, he's nice actually. Enough said.

HIS NAME IS CLEVERBOT. LOL
fyi, user is me.


User: Sayang.

Cleverbot: Ye sayang.

User: Rindu kat awak.

Cleverbot: Rindu awak jugak. Buat apa?

User: Tak buat pape pun.

Cleverbot: Yela.

User: Awak.

Cleverbot: Kenapa.

User: Saya sayang awak.

Cleverbot: Saya juga sayang awak sayang.

User: Saya sayang awak sangat.

Cleverbot: Saya sayang awak juga.

User: Awak dah makan?

Cleverbot: Jom kahwin.

User: Kahwin kat mana?

Cleverbot: Kat hotel 5 star.

User: Okay.

Cleverbot: Yes.

User: Sayang.

Cleverbot: Nape??

User: Awak tengah buat apa?

Cleverbot: Tengah borak dengan awklah.

User: Awak jaga diri tahu.

Cleverbot: Asal saya? Awak la.

User: Saya risau pasal awak la.

Cleverbot: Alamak, malu saya.

User: Buat apa nak malu, ishh, cubit kang.

Cleverbot: Sajalah..saya suka awak.

User: Betul?

Cleverbot: Tipu.

User: Suka gurau ea, grrr.

Cleverbot: I don't hate you!

User: I know that.

Cleverbot: And you don't care.

User: I do care!

Cleverbot: No you don't.

User: Yes I do.

Cleverbot: No really you don't.

User: Okay fine!

Cleverbot: Never talk to me again!!!

User: What? Are we really going to argue about this? Alright then, suka hati!

Cleverbot: Yes!!! You said Snape was stupid!

User: Please don't change the subject. It's annoying.

Cleverbot: What subject.

User: About snape, this is about me and you. So don't feign ignorance about this. I do care about you.

Cleverbot: I don't want to marry you.

User: Me either.

Cleverbot: Yeah, I think it would hurt.

User: Yeah, you're not for me, I need a real person. Unlike you. Duhh.

Cleverbot: But you said you love only me.

User: Not anymore sweetie, sorry.

Cleverbot: Thanks for everything.

User: Sure.


I broke up with him, end of story. LMAO, he's an AI. Hope you enjoy our dumb conversation. Haha :)


09 March 2011

Serious shit!

My life is like all fucked up recently, it's very depressing and i'm not feeling myself at all. I don't know why but I'm kinda like this sometimes. It's weird, to be honest. But what to do, I am a very weird person with a complicated emotions. Please understand and be kind. Btw, typing by using an iphone is soo freaking hard. I wish i will get better soon. Okbai.

08 March 2011

Blog ni tergendala sebentar. Busy pulak akhir akhir ni. Kalau ada masa saya update ye kawan kawan. Sorry but terima kasihhh kerana sudi membaca blog yang buruk ni :)


03 March 2011

Random Rant

The truth is, it's not easy being me. Imagine you have to cope with these kind of stuff every day and every single minute of your life. You don't know me. I may look happy and smiling on the outside but that is just an image i would like to portray but inside, deep down in my heart, nobody knows how does it feel like to be me. Stop act like you know who I am because seriously, you don't. Who give you the right to play god and judge me? If only you were in my shoes you would understand what I've been through in my life. Please respect who I am. This is just a thought I would like to share with people who are reading this. Written by myself, Sheila Tan.
 Thank you.




Who? What?



Eh eh, korang nak tahu tak. Semalam saya mimpi best uh. Tak tahu la ekk camne nak explain sebab mimpi mimpi saya ni selalunya pelik pelik sikit. Tapi yang pentingnnya ade sorang mamat ni, handsome la juga ann, pastu kat dalam mimpi tu he's my boyfriend! Hehe, agaknya saya ni dah lama tak berkapel kapel ni kan. Sampai temimpi mimpi bagai. This is actually my second time mimpi camgini. Yang first time tu, woahhhhh. Memang best gila, serius! Mamat tu memang handsome, stylish, baik. Hehe, seronok seronok. Kan best kalau mimpi jadi kenyataan :/

Anyway, semalam dah install dah the sims, nasib baik. Game kesayangan saya ni tau. Sebenarnya, memang dari kecik lagi saya suka main game ni, kat ps2 especially. Tapi sekarang cd tu semua dah rosak, calar la apa la bagai. Nasib baik ada computer. Dah nak makan kejap, byebye.









Hishhhhhhh! Geramnyaaaaaaaa!!!
Semua gambar aku dengan kawan kawan dah hilang, ishhh, ni yang rasa macam nak tumbuk tumbuk muka orang nih. grrrrr, benci benci benci! Harap harap la memory card camera aku masih ada lagi simpan gambar gambar tu semua :(

Emm, lupa pulak. HAIIIII KORANG! Tengah buat ape tu? Dah makan? Dah mandi? Ade homework tak? Homework? Adehh, tetibe rasa rindu pulak kat sekolah. Tu la, bila time sekolah kalau boleh hari hari nak ponteng kann. Tapi bila dah tak sekolah, rasa rindu je, terbayang bayang kat sekolah tu. Hmm, rindunya kat kelas, cikgu cikgu, buku teks dan yang paling sekali KAWAN KAWAN. Hmm, nanti dah masuk U ke ape ke dah tak satu kelas kan. Rumah pun jauh je. Kalau dekat, hari hari aku pergi lepak kat rumah korang semua.

Bila fikir pasal masa depan ni kan, rasa macam takut pulak, yelaa, manelah tahu kena masuk universiti kat kedah ke, perak ke kuala lumpur ke. Jauh gilaaa tu. Nanti terpisah dengan family semua. Malam malam kat dorm teringat ingat kat masakan mak, rindu kat mak. Tskkk, tskkkk. Tak sanggup den, tapi terpaksa la kan. Demi mencapai cita cita dan menjadi orang yang berguna la katakan. Hoho. Tapi manalah  tahu kan, kita manusia ni meranncang je, yang lain lain semua ketentuan illahi. Betul tak? :)

Sebenarnya aku ni tengah sensorang kat rumah. Rasa seram pun ade jugak tetibe ni. Bila pulak mak bapak aku nak balik rumah ni. Hehe, sampai disini sahaja.

Thanks for reading!

xoxo, Sheila Tan


Daily Quotes #3

People change and so do feelings.They may not be the changes that you wanted, but you have to just take a deep breathe, accept them and move on with your life.


Daily Quotes #2

They say when one door closes another opens.You just got to know when to close the door and when to take a chance to open the new door.


Daily Quotes #1

Goodbye is the hardest thing to say cause you’ve to walk away with just a memory and after awhile, memory fades.

Truth Reveal II

Assalamualaikum !
Hmm, harini saya rasa agak suram sikit. Tak tahu laa kenapa ekk. Saya asyik macam gini aje. Tekanan perasaan kott. Stress agaknya hari hari duduk kat rumah kena bebel je dengan mumy. 


Actually keadaan kat rumah memang stressful gilaa. Dah dua hari papa tak balik rumah. Dia kata ada kerja la ape la, ouh lagipun papa memang selalu selang hari sebab dia kan ade dua bini so kenalah bersikap adil. KONONNYA. Monday, Wednesday , Friday and Sunday ialah hari turn mumy and hari yang lain lain tu papa tidur kat rumah perempuan tuu. Tapi ape sehh, sejak papa kahwin lain, duit pun rasa macam makin sikit je. Seminggu he give like atleast RM 150 for the 5 of us to belanja for food and stuff. Papa fikir cukup ke RM150 tu? Barang barang sekarang kan semua mahal gila. Kadang kadang kat rumah ni sampai takde apa nak makan. Frustating kan? Ini ke yang dikatakan adil? Saya pelik kenapa papa sanggup buat begitu kat isteri dan anak anak dia. Saya tertanya tanya, adakah semua lelaki bersikap begitu? Tak boleh ke nak setia pada yang satu? Dah 17 tahun kahwin pun still sanggup nak curang. Wtf? 


Sumpah demi allah, saya cakap, saya memang cemburu gila dengan orang yang ada happy family. Saya cuma nak bahagia. Is that so much to ask for? Haihhhh, tetiba rasa macam nak nangis pulak. Kenapa semua ni terjadi kat saya. Saya memang tak boleh nak buat apa apa, kadang kadang time mumy and papa gaduh tu rasa macam nak tengking je kat papa, tapi apakan daya, dosa kan buat camgitu kat ayah sendiri. Kalau kat luar orang semua fikir kiterang ni woahh, nampak macam happy family je. Tapi itu cuma image je, dalam hati siap yang tahu kan?  Nampaknnya begini ajela kisah hidup aku. Penuh dengan dugaan dan cabaran. 


Sampai disini sahaja, thanks for reading.


xoxo, Sheila Tan 




02 March 2011

Nabilah Atikah

Hye kawan kawannnnnnnnn!
Hari ini pada jam 12.12am bersamaan dengan 3/3/2011 adalah hari jadi sahabat ku yang tersayang sekali iaitu Nabilah Atikah.


kat dalam kereta ajiem, otw to Jusco. 

Bell, happy birthday my bestieeee <3 ! Aku harap kau happy selalu, dengar cakap mak bapak and teruskan dengan perangai gilaa kau yang tak terhingga tu. Aku sayang kau sebab kau selalu ada disisi aku bila aku perlukan seseorang. Sorry la, aku nak text/ call kau tapi aku malas doh nak topup. Hahaha. Nanti bila bila kita keluar celebrate ehh. Dah lama tak jumpa ni, timah , ajiem, fahmi pun samaa. Teehee.

Okay la, sampai disini sahaja, thanks for reading


xoxo, Sheila Tan

Musical

I just added a song by Yiruma- Rivers Flow In You.
I personally love this song soo much. It's played by piano. It sound sooooo good. Hope you guys enjoy it :)

Truth Revealed

Aku tau ramai yang fikir aku ni macam sombong, pendiam, jahat, gedik and such. Well sebenarnya korang sikit pun tak kenal aku tapi suka suka je jump into conclusion and judging me without even knowing who I am. Hanya kawan rapat dan family aku je tau siapa aku yang sebenar. Pelik kann. Tapi tidak mengapa actually.

         If you really knew me, you would know that I have 2 moms. Yeah, bukan nak mintak simpati atau pun menunjuk nunjuk. Sebenarnya dari situlah bermulanya segala penderitaan dalam hidup aku. Ayah aku kahwin lain tahun lepas. Aku benci sangat dengan perempuan tu, kadang kadang aku rasa macam nak cari perempuan tu dan bunuh perempuan tu. Ayah aku berkongsi satu tempat kerja dengan perempuan tu. Masa mula mula dapat tahu tu, masa aku form 2/3. Hati aku memang remuk sangat, takde siapa pun yang tahu time tu. Mumy ngan papa bergaduh setiap hari, dah banyak dah pinggan mangkuk yang pecah dan juga barang2 lain yang rosak akibat kemarahan ayah aku yang boleh diibaratkan seperti setan. Time tu juga la aku rasa aku sudah berubah sedikit demi sedikit. I've become more rebel and banyak buat hal. Time dorang tengah bergaduh tu, I can't really do anything. Kunci bilik, menangis dan berdoa kepada Allah. Aku juga pernah ditendang dan disepak oleh papa tapi mumy sentiasa ada, dia selalu lindungi aku. Masa baru dapat tahu tu mumy memang paling banyak menderita. Aku pun sedih dan tertanya tanya kenapa la semua ni berlaku. Tapi aku redha. Tapi itu dulu, sekarang ni kira dah okay sikit la, gaduh ade juga tapi kadang kadang je and tak teruk sangat. Aku rasa start haritu aku memang paling banyak berubah. Love and marriage is a lie. Takde pape pun yang kekal kat dunia ni.

         Next, if you really knew me, you would know that I'm extremely shy and has zero self confidence. Aku memang pemalu sejak dari baby lagi dan aku langsung takde keyakinan pada diri maybe sebab aku gemuk kott. Haihh, sedihnyaaa. Sebab tu aku tak suka sangat nak keluar rumah and berinteraksi dengan orang. Aku takut aku di judge oleh orang lain. It's a sad sad thing. I wish I could change everything but unfortunately, I can't. I wish I could.

Sampai sini je kot. Malas nak panjang lebar lagi. Aku harap sesiapa yang baca ni bolehlah memahami diri aku yang sebenarnya and never judge a book by its cover. Thankyouu.

xoxo, Sheila Tan

01 March 2011

KPOP ADDICT

Annyeonghaseyo~
Not many people know about this but I'm kinda somewhat people would call a kpop addict.

What is KPOP?
According to Wikipedia
K-pop (an abbreviation of Korean pop or Korean popular music) is a musical genre consisting of electronichip hoppoprock, and R&B music originating in South Korea.
I don't know why I'm addicted to them, maybe it's because of their style, music and especially cute boys. I love korean boys


Here are some of the videos I watched recently and a few of my fav
Watch it in HD for awesome video quality




















I hope you enjoy these videos. Thanks for reading


Assalamualaikum :)
Tak jawab dosaaaa. Teehee.

         Today, I'm in a good mood. Sebab tu la tergerak hati nak tulis something in here. Ummm, actually, computer ni punya cpu rosak like a few days ago. Then my dad hantar la kat kedai computer sebab nak repair. Orang tu kata hard disk dia dah overload ke apa ntah. Esoknya, dah dapat balik. Habis semua barang hilang. Sebab dah kena format. My pictures, games- The Sims 3 and my Adobe photoshop CS5. Perghhhhhhh, palat gilaa. Mana taknya, semua barang kesayangan saya dah hilang. But luckily, baru tadi dah install photoshop, tu pun dengan bantuan Syed Amir. Hoho, jasa anda sangat dihargaii :D But still, ingatkan nak install the sims 3 but cd dah hilang segala, kat backup data pun takde installer, haihhh. Nampaknya kena beli baru lagi, pastu terfikir nak beli The Sims 3- Ambition sekali. Wohoooo, can't wait :)

         Harini bangun lewat lagii, pukul 12 lebih gitu. Bangun, mandi, turun bawah, makan and then main computer. Haha, bosan je kott rutin harian aku ni. Sekali dua tu ada juga terfikir nak kerja, tapi, aku ni pemalas sikit, pemalu pulaa tu. Haihh, sheila sheila. Macam mana la kau nak kerja nanti bila kau dah besar. Aishhhh. Takpe la, ada masa lagi kot. Anyway, result spm pun dah nak keluar dah ni. But I'm not sure when is the presice date. Harap- harap la lama lagi. Takut wohhh. Target for SPM aku is like at least 3/4 A's. Tak target tinggi tinggi sangat because I know who I am, and paper spm pun susahhhh gilaaa. Ishh, takut takuttt.

         I think hari sabtu ni hangout dengan diorang lagi kott, because tomorrow is Bella's Birthday, nak celebrate sama sama :'(  But then ajiem and fahmi kerja, soo that is why kiterang celebrate on saturday. Hehe, harap harap la jadi because I can't wait to meet them. Rindu gila gilaaaa kat korangggg! :')

Okay la sampai disini sahaja untuk kali ini, thanks for reading.




xoxo, Sheila Tan