It has been a long time since I've updated anything here. Blogging and writing personal stuff is not really my cup of tea. I prefer having a private life. I don't know, it's just me, my opinion. No offence people. My life is okay I guess. Nothing new and exciting things happen. I just finished my spm and I'm currently jobless. I'm 18 now but nothing changed. Yeah, whatever. I'm going to edit my blog, codes are complicated. Urghh, byebye.

Greetings

Hello everyone :)
I'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Haha. Sudah lama rasanya tak update blog ni. Almaklumlah, kemalasan tahap maksimum, hehe. Tetapi hari ni saya telah merajinkan diri saya untuk meng-update blog ni. Sekarang ni saya sedang menjalani peperiksaan SPM. Tinggal dua paper je lagi pastu dah boleh enjoyy! Haha, seronok rasanya tapi I'll be missing my friends like hell. Lepas ni dah tak tau lagi dah bila nak jumpa kan kan? :'( They are my awesome and crazy buddies. I love all of them. Tanpa mereka, tanpa la saya. Ohh, sedihnya bila dikenangkan kembali pengalaman suka dan duka yang kiterang lalui bersama. Haha, ayat madah tak boleh blahh ;D

Emm, as you can see, all my past entries is about me being lonely and sad. Yeah, well, not anymore. I guess I'm happier now. Once said that, HAPPINESS IS WHAT WE CHOOSE TO BE. And yeah, I choose to be a happy person. No more tears, no more sadness. Just a happy me :)

Okay la, sampai disini je kott. Takde idea nak tulis ape lagi dah. Bubyeeee <3

Hell

I'm boredddddddd to death . That's why I've decided to write something on my blog . I'm basically alone right now. My dad is outstation. He had a meeting somewhere and my mum went to my cousin's house . And my brothers went out, they had a football game or something. I don't really care . Sooo, emmm . Nothing much happened this week . It was bored . My life is bored . Everything is BORINGGGGGGGG . Erghhhhhhhhh *frustrated* *sigh* :/ 

Ohhh, I forgot! Actually, there something happened to me this week . My camera was seized by the teachers . I was shocked + sad + scared. Takot kene marahh becuase I had to meet Miss 'S' at her office . When I'm in there, she was like scolding and questioning me . After a few minutes of lecturing, she asked me to call my mum. I called then my mum came to school. The teacher show some photo that they claim those photo seem to violate the law or something, they also complained to my mother about my behaviour at school. They said I'm lazy, my grades had been decreasing *Like I care* and then my mum took the camera back home . Thanks godness nothing bad happened . Miss 'S' gave me a warning and I went back to class, so, nothing serious about it . At home pon kene lectured lagi. Grrrrr, tension gilaa time uh . But anyway I do regret what I did and I had learned my lesson . I promise I won't do it again =.=" 

Emmm, anyway that's all I guess . Thanks for reading

xoxo, Sheila Tan  

DIE

 I'm losing it, I'm giving up.
My eyes are closed and my mouth is shut.
I can't even try anymore.
What am I even fighting for?
I'm useless and I can't be happy.
There's no way I can live being me.
Every day, I feel so bad,
For every time I make you sad.
I think I'm just gonna say goodbye.
I can no longer live a lie.
Maybe I'll see you again someday. 

This time I know I'm not okay.

-Sheila

Yeahh, that's pretty much how I felt right now. DYING . I alone. A lonely hag . I'm just bored with my life. I fought with my parents, again . Life is just dull. It means nothing to me anymore. I guess I'm better off dead . Nobody appreciates me. I'm fucking depressed . I'm just NOT feeling OKAY. That's all I have to say .