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Hollo n assalamualaikum :)

Dah lama tak jejak kaki kat blog ni, tak tau la kenapa, tapi rasa macam dah tak tau dah nak tulis ape kat sini. Kalau dulu2 tu boleh la rajin la juga kan, at least every month ada la 1/2 new post. But nowadays, sejak dah makin dewasa ni *ceh* sikap malas tu makin membuak2 pulak.

So tahun ni, 2012 umur saya dah 19 tahun.  Next year, 20 tahun. Aduhhhh. Tak suka k tak suka.  Rasa macam diri ni dah makin tua pun ada. New responsibility and lots more of new stuff ahead of me *sigh.  Tinggal lagi setahun/ 2 sem je lagi nak grad and habis diploma. Still tak sure lagi whether nak sambung for degree or not.  My parents say I should continue tapi arghhhhhh, I'll listen to what my parents say probably. We'll see.

So for this week, uitmians sekarang tengah ada final test. Sem 3 kali ni takde la killer paper sangat except for  record management, icom and csc. Takut sangat2, tadi paper csc pun tersangkut2 nak jawab. Ape yang aku hafal semua tak keluar. Kecewa k. Takut repeat je kan, dah la carry mark pun rendah. Ya allah. Hmm, hanya mampu berdoa dan wait for the best to happen. Tinggal lagi 3 paper je lagi, csc, icom and record. Will be on tuesday, sunday and thursday the next week. Then cuti semmmmm. Boleh la enjoy, kot. Cuti sem tak lama, sebulan lebih je. Probably just going to sit at home dan menternak lemak. Huahuahua. Life is awesome  (✌ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞ Okay la, kalau update panjang2 pun bukan ada yang baca, haha. byebyebyee.

Perasaan

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Assalamualaikum everyone :)

How r u today? Hehe. Disebabkan kebosanan yang agak terlebih dos, tetiba terasa macam nak update blog pula petangII camgini. Kerja ade, assignment banyak tapi malas la nak buat sekarang. TimeII camgini sesuai untuk tidur je, betul tak? Kekeke. 

Harini tak tau la ek nak update pasal ape, tapi tetibe terasa macam nak update pasal perasaan.

Korang tau kan maksudnya :)

So lately, I accidentally fell in love again. Opps...

Haha, takde la. Bukan jatuh cinta, tapi just suka kat seseorang. Hehe. But the truth is, I fell in love to easily. Senang senang senang sangat suka kat orang but however perasaan ni tak tahan lama pun. Kejap je. Cukup satu sem, sem depan suka orang lain pulak. Haha. Tapi  saya tidak mempermainkan perasaan orang okay. I just like to see them at kolej tapi tak pernah tegur pun and the chances that the person don't know me are also very high. Hampeh tak? Haha. #foreveralone

My BIGGEST problem is I get bored tooo easily. Cepat rasa bosan dengan orang yang sama. Lelaki especially. Yeah, it's a bad thing I know. But it's just who I am. Risau juga ek, kalauII dah kahwin nanti, tak sampai berapa tahun dah cerai. Nauzubillah min zalik. HarapII tak la sampai ke tahap camgitu kan. So thats why, agaknya sampai sekarang Allah still belum temukan saya dengan jodoh saya, maybe he knows better what's best for me and I will always accept my fate with an open heart :) Insyaallah, allah akan ketemukan jodohku bila tiba masanya nanti. 

But right now, I think it's better if I focus on my studies first, bukan ape, but I get distracted to easily. In my opinion, no offence please. Couple is too distracting for me as I am now still a student studying to get a better future, not only for myself but also my family. Nanti lepas dah habis diploma further degree and than dah kerja barulah masa yang paling sesuai untuk berfikir pasal couple and yang lebih indah, perkahwinan. Huu, tak sabar nak ada baby nanti. Hehe :) Sebaik-baiknya bercinta lepas kahwin, tu lagi best tu :D

*Note to future husband:

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. I know it's a bit to early to say this but all I want to say is thank you for being the person that I love the most in my life. I promise you that I will be the best wife you could ever had. I will cook for you , clean the house, take care of our kids, love you every single day and take care of you. I hope that you will stay faithful to me even when I'm old, fat and ugly. Please promise me that we will love each other forever till Jannah. Insyaallah. I know I'm not perfect, nobody is. But thank for accepting me for who I am not for what I am. I may not be the prettiest, the cutest and the skinniest person in the world but thank you future husband, for marrying me. I hope that you will change me into a better person and a better muslimah, i know that you would lead me to the right path and you will always love me only because of lillahi Ta`ala. I love you.

Ya Allah, aku bersyukur dengan apa yang telah kau berikan padaku kini. Kau lebih mengenaliku dari sesiapa pun di muka bumi ini. Ketemukanlah aku dengan jodoh yang baik bila tiba masanya nanti. Aminn :) xx

KAWAN

Kawan? Apa itu kawan? Kadang-kadang aku rasa lebih baik kalau aku hidup sendirian tanpa kawan-kawan. Tapi bila difikirkan balik, kawan itulah yang sebenarnya menjadi tulang belakang kita, yang sering membantu kita, yang bersikap jujur pada kita, yang ambil berat pasal kita, yang risau pasal kita. Okay, tak semua orang kat dunia ni boleh dijadikan kawan. Tak semua orang baik, ada yang baik tapi di depan kita sahaja, di belakang siapa tahu kan?

Manusia ni cepat berubah. Walaupun kita kenal orang tu selama mana pun itu tidak bermaksud kita kenal perangai dia 100%.  Peoples are unpredictable. Kita buat baik kat orang tak semestinya orang itu akan sukakan kita. Dalam hidup ini, percayalah, macam-macam jenis orang yang akan kita jumpa. Persahabatan itu tidak akan kekal selama-lamanya. Pasti ada sahaja perkara yang akan memisahkan kita. Memang susah nak jaga hati orang lain. Kadang-kadang memang susah nak faham perangai seseorang.

Tapi kalau kita buat salah kat orang lain, pergi la minta maaf kat dia. Buang ego tu. Mungkin dia tak berniat nak buat awak macamgitu. Mungkin dia tak sangka perkara tu akan jadi sebegini. Mungkin semua ini hanya salah faham sahaja. Kita meminta maaf, dan it's up to them untuk memaafkan kita. Sedangkan Allah pun mengampuni umatnya, takkan manusia yang kerdil ni tak boleh berbuat begitu?

Hargailah sahabat anda selagi mereka masih ada. Manusia ini rapuh, hidup ini cuma sementara sahaja. Nothing last forever. Sayangilah orang di sekeliling anda, walaupun awak tak berapa suka dengan perangai dia or whatnot but remember siapa yang selalu tolong awak, selalu dengar masalah awak, selalu support awak. Manusia ini serba kekurangan tapi ade juga kelebihannya yang tersendiri.

Sorry, merepek pulak tetiba.

Kepada kawan-kawan yang rapat dengan aku, maafkan aku, aku tahu, aku tak sempurna, banyak kelemahan aku. I'm so sorry.  Banyak kan salah aku kat korang. Aku tak sangka perkara ini akan terjadi. Maafkan aku. Hidup aku rasa macam sampah kalau korang takde. I miss the moments when we're together. I'm sorry.  xx

Momo

HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!! Assalamualaikum semua :)

Pehh, berdebu dah blog ni. Lama gila tak update. Korang semua okay? Sihat tak? Semoga Allah merahmati kita semua. Aminn. So, hari ni adalah hari Ahad bersamaan dengan 24 June 2012. Maksudnya dah hampir 2 minggu sejak kolej bermula. Sekarang ni dah masuk part 3 dah, senior tak senior tak? Haha. My new life and adventures begins. Macamane dengan life sekarang? Hmmm, okay je. So far so good. Learning new things and stuffs. This week tak balik rumah, my parents are quite busy nowdays so mereka tak dapat nak ambil saya di kolej teratai ni. But it's okay, at least I can escape from home for a while. Which is a good thing, right? I hope. I'm happy as long as I'm not at home. 


So the other day, I receive a very very bad news. My cat, Momo just died. he died that morning but my mum didn't tell me right away cause I have classes and she didn't want to interrupt me. At about 8 pm my mum called me and tell me the bad news. At first I was shocked but at the same time I kinda expected it because last week, Momo was very ill and I also recorded a video of him in my phone. I sorta seen that coming. But still it's sad and painful at the same time, momo has been with my family for 6 years. It's hard to let go the things you love the most. So my mum called and she was like crying and stuff. I tried to hold on to my tears when I talked at the phone. After we hang up, I cried. I cried and cried until my eyes were swollen. I looked at his pictures and videos and I cry non-stop. I know, some of you might think. Oh, he's just a cat. EXCUSE ME, NO. HE IS NOT JUST A CAT. He is a part of my life and I love him. He's always there for me and I trust him more than humans. I hope he's resting in heaven and have a good life there. I'm sure he would, I hope that one day I can meet him in syurga. 


p.s. wifi kat kolej sucks big time, I can't post momo photos here. Look for it at my fb.



Byebyeee xx